I closed my eyes, closing myself from every noise of the world. Even if Tay was by my side, speaking, I wouldn't hear it. i was needing time to think, to think about things.
Oh Nicolas. Why did you do that, I thought. Why did you have to leave me in such a way? Losing my maker with the fire was already hard, but him? My mortal lover? Nobody could know how hard it was. Nobody could even begin to understand...
I took a rock and throwed it in the lake. "I miss you Nicolas..." I whispered in the night. "Wherever your soul is..."
I felt my heart melt and I let go of Samuel. I cried. And the cubs knew something was bothering me. I forgot that Nicolas had died in a fire. I had hoped that Samuel would have told me that he could do soemthing to bring Nicolas to Lestat. I cried and cried. I hated seeing the one I loved hurt.
I got out of the hammock and ran to the other end of the island. I sat on a rock and cursed the night. I had left Chubbles and Oz in the hammock and I sat there looking out onto the ocean and cried. I knew Lestat would be able to find me once he was ready to. I just had to figure out a way that I could apologize to him. I felt so bad for upsetting him.
Is this going to be the cause for him to push me away? I thought to myself.
I cried and continued to cry until I fell asleep lying on the sand.
I sighed deeply and stayed on the rock for a while, staring at the stars. I knew Tay was sleeping and I wasn't daring to wake her up, especially I was sure she would be angry and upset at me for being so sad over Nicolas. In the night, I could hear all the noises of the cities around us. The noises of the birds, of the water running in the lake, of the waves, of the wind. It was like the New Orleans was calling up to me, begging me to get back there. It was how it was happening often. I wasn't tired of the island, only I was needing life around me. It wasn't like being totally alone anyway.
I got up and wiped away the few tears on my cheek, then washed my face and hands in the water. After drying my face, I made my way back to Tay.
Chubbles and Oz were sleeping by her side. How adorable it was. I slowly touched her shoulder.
I opened my eyes and saw my beautiful Lestat standing over me. I sat up and then got up and wrapped my arms around him. "Are you okay? I was worried about you and I'm just glad you're here. I think I have to apologize to you. I'm sorry for bringing back a memory of one you loved. I just hope that you will love your surprise." I said to him.
I then couldn't stand it anymore and kissed him deeply.
I kissed her back deeply, then slowly pulled away. "No need to appologize. Nicolas is almost always in my mind. It is how I am. Often thinking about the past. It isn't your fault. Don't worry, I am fine."
I smiled to her to prove her I was okay. "But I want to get out of this island. The animals have enough food for now anyway. And I want my surprise." I laughed softly.
"Yay. Let's go. I can't wait to see your facial expression when you get your surprise." I said to him.
I wrapped my arms around him and kissed his lips softly to let him know that I was ready whenever he was and that we could leave while the cubs were still asleep. I knew that by the time we got back to New Orleans that it would be almost dawn and then the surprise would be brought in while we slept and that when we woke up, Lestat would be one happy man. Or so I hoped.
I kissed her lips softly, then her forehead, and holding her tightly in my arms, I took the sky.
I stayed near of the island for a few seconds, watching it from afar. It was always so pretty, such a beautiful little paradise. I closed my eyes and made my way to my house without a word. It was a little cold in the sky, so with the mind gift, I moved my leather jacket so it would be on her shoulders as much as possible, keeping her warm.
I landed in front of my house and put her back on her feet.
I was glad to be back home but I also loved the island. I yawned and looked up at Lestat and said, "We don't have long til the sun comes up do we?"
I headed towards the house to go in and change into my night clothes or should I say day clothes. I chose a blue satin spaghetti strapped nightgown and slipped into it and started back down the stairs when I saw Lestat come through the door.
I walked back inside when she was changed and smiled. "Still around one hour... or maybe a little less. For you, thirty minutes." I said softly. "I need to get changed too. Do you want to sleep in a bed tonight?" I winked to her. "We could sleep in my bedroom. With the curtains closed, no sun can get in."
I smiled at him and said, "yes. Let's sleep in a bed tonight. That Way I can be with you and when you wake, I'll feel it."
I walked with him to his room where he was going to change. It was a huge room. I sat on the bed and noticed that it was extremely soft. "Wow. You have a thing for softness." I said to him.